This journey has consumed my every moment. I feel as though my inside want to scream right now! I only have three more chapters to write until I am done with Secrets. What's more is I will exceed my intended word goal. Just as I am preparing to end chapter eighteen I look and see I have 48,000 words written. My goal was 50,000. I doubt I'll reach that by the end of eighteen but should reach it near the end of chapter nineteen.
I'm quite at a loss of where to go once I've finished. Do I look for an agent and try to get published? Do I settle with second best and content myself with the satisfaction of actually finishing? I can't ignore the creeping sense of doubt as it slowly consumes me. What if it really isn't that good? I guess I'll know once I start weeding through it and getting it at least agent ready. I'm not a grammar queen and know that with over 50,000 words there will be a lot of mistakes. I don't know how long it'll take me to go through it completely.
Still, I have to be asked an important question. Do I refrain from publishing it, use this as a learning experience and move on to something better or do I shoot for the stars? Help.
